LIFE IS a Tsunami

I started this blog, because everyone was doing it. I knew I liked to write but not this way, stories come from my mind like I'm reciting the way I spent my day, known and lived. I thought first I'll make the blog political, because Obama became POTUS, and there was so much to talk about, from tea baggers, racism, bigotry, sexism, to the do nothings in the House and Senate, really a circus. There was a lot of material to write something about daily. I ignored it for a while after writing the first post, and then came back one day, and decided it was going to be a blog on Art projects, because I'm an art teacher, and I'm very creative. So I deleted what I had, rewrote it and renamed it. Then I got on Facebook, and this blog was left behind. I became political on Facebook, and shared my art, but didn't do much else.

In 2012, I thought my world was going to end. My world ended. When I was 27, I had an apocalyptic dream, that the world would end, but I wouldn't. I stood facing the sun in a world that was dead and filled with fear. I anticipated the end of the world in 2012, that was according to prophesy, little did the world know, that prophesy was written for me, because this is MY STORY. My world ended in December 2012, in January I was reBORN. In the beginning of January, I met a man who woke me up. My SOUL which is ENERGY, came out of my body, and was lit like a flame from a candle is ignited. It was the most painful and wonderful experience of my life. It was a journey to find MYSELF.

When I was two, I had a dream, I was sitting on a beach, facing the ocean. I turned and found a turn-of-the-century hotel behind me, that's 1900, not 2000. I was a baby, sitting on the beach facing the water, but there wasn't any water, there was wet sand, and beyond that small pools where fish flopped around in, and beyond that a wave. It was a tsunami, and it was giant, and it was headed right towards me. That was a dream about my LIFE, it was rushing towards me. You see, in all my dreams in my LIFE, the dreams about water, mean LIFE my life path. I am never afraid, whatever the water is, deep, frozen, rushing torrents, deep oceans, I am always confident and knowing this is ME, and my family, but not the family I grew up in. I sat facing my LIFE rushing towards me, I faced it and never really knew what that dream was about until this morning. I always knew that water pathways, were my LIFE path, but I never could figure out the tsunami. It was too plain and large before me until this morning. Life comes rushing at you, like a tsunami. It all depends upon how you face it.

On one hand, a tsunami is something you run from. The FLOW of the UNIVERSE is going with it. So that would imply do what comes naturally. Unfortunately humans don't always do what is natural. Animals inherently know, when a tsunami is coming and they go the way the water will flow, away from it. That is natural, that is going with the FLOW. But there's another way to look on this, and that is facing LIFE, but there's also a problem with facing life, it's not natural. It's not going with the FLOW, it's going against the flow. Like people, when they see a tsunami coming, what do they do? They think about it, and that's where we differ from animals. Animals ARE the FLOW of the UNIVERSE, we can look at animals and just be, just be like them. Or we can go against the flow, the problem that is, it doesn't work. Why do we think when we see a tsunami coming? Because we are afraid. It's something I lived my life doing, being afraid. I picked the perfect parents to help me learn my lessons. There are no mistakes, there are only learning experiences. I picked the perfect family, to help me learn what it is I needed to and keep myself to MYSELF. On one hand, I saw this tsunami rushing towards me and I'm sure that at that moment when I was two, I knew exactly what it was, because there's not one dream I had about water, that I didn't know what it meant. I was a two year old, sitting on the beach, and loving the LIFE that was coming at me. I was not afraid, I was facing LIFE, and I was going to live it.

But I didn't, being in fear, kept me from living. Today, I know the dream, I know the tsunami and I know that today, is when I start LIVING. No one is afraid to die, we are all afraid to LIVE.