The other day I worked out. I hadn't done so in a while. Almost every day from January 2013, to the beginning of September I worked out. I woke up at 3:30, worked out for an hour every day, and walked in the afternoon. I did so to lose weight, to meet a man. I did lose weight and it was much easier meeting men, because they are visual, superficial creatures unless they are aware and awake. Losing weight to meet a man is ridiculous.
In September I took two classes after work, which really hampered my work out efforts. I no longer could get to bed at 9 p.m. and so couldn't wake at 3:30. Waking later wasn't possible because of work. In the afternoon I had homework or I was going into class early. I didn't work out for four months. At the end of December, I started up again, but only going 3-4 times a week.
In January, I broke up with my ex lover, and that started my journey to finding myself. Most of the time from January 2014 to August, I was emotionally and physically exhausted. Still I was working out, because it was an important part of the process. Exhaustion played a role in all of my transcendental experiences, waking or sleeping. Then I transitioned.
By September, I was once again not working out, except for walking. I haven't been doing much physically, because emotionally my spirituality has taken me to interesting places. Overcoming patterns of thinking and behaving and moving forward and doing what I'm supposed to be doing, has been physically challenging. The mental process at that time was more important than anything else. Overcoming my destructive patterns are the most important thing in helping me move forward.
I worked out the other day. I got a little sore, no big deal. But my knee which has something and shoulder on my left side are stiff and painful. They first started stiffening up, when my MIND started expanding. My right brain(MIND) no longer exists, it IS the UNIVERSE. My left BODY functioning suffers. Today I decided to take an ibuprofen. Normally I shut the pain down, by saying I do. On Saturday I got off Facebook. Every day since then my MIND has been expanding. Every night I have had transcendental dreams with MY LIGHT BODY. I haven't slept much and find concentrating upon the health of my BODY difficult at best.
My BODY and MY MIND are what I control. I can control my thoughts, or let them control me. I can control my BODY and what I put into it. But I can also control how I feel. By proclaiming I feel well when I wake up, I do. This morning I thought of how my knee was going to hurt and it does. I have had chronic pain my entire life, but I have also controlled that pain with my thoughts.
A simple mantra when I am in pain, or when I have a stomach ache or any ailment, I say; I control my BODY, MY BODY does not control me. I may revise it, to not say anything about cannot or does not. But up until this point, this mantra has always worked. That was my first ibuprofen in more than a year.
Losing weight to meet a man is ridiculous. Losing weight to be healthy and feel well is the only reason to lose weight. Meeting a man who loves my MIND is what true LOVE is about.
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