Actions do speak louder than words

I broke my HEART again.  I got in a relationship with the same kind of man again. I didn't recognize it until yesterday.  I think it's over. I've attracted the same man with slight differences the last two years. I want a man who knows who and what he is.  I want a man who is available,  who is vulnerable, who is open and who is loving and as weird as I AM.  I want a man who looks INside and SEES me for who I AM.  I want a man who is close, spiritual, I want the man I don't have,  but he doesn't want me.