The TRUTH Pt. 1

The TRUTH never hurts when you have worked through ALL HURT.  The TRUTH IS DIVINE and FREEING.

Now I understand my struggle.  The way I struggle comes in a cycle, that means it's a pattern.  It's a pattern I'm going to break.  It's a pattern of thinking, that being alone is where I'm supposed to be.  When I'm alone,  there is no struggle,  because being alone is the pattern, being in a relationship IS NEW.  That's why the WORD steadfast was added to my rituals not too long ago, because it's something I need to have, to be here, and working towards. I guess some words are added when acquired others when needed.

Being alone is easy, it's the way I've been my entire LIFE.  Being in a relationship is different and so I have been struggling. I LOVE clarity for the TRUTH it brings. Being in a relationship is new and unfamiliar. Being alone is buying into a form of separatism.

Maybe that's why I shared the Ganesh mantra early last week, I said Ganesh breaks down barriers, then wondered at what barriers I had to break down!  Maybe this is deeper than me, maybe this pattern is so deep that it's a SOUL pattern, maybe that's why it's so engrained! Maybe this SOUL pattern always revolves around MY signature and HIS signature.  His signature is patient,  LOVING, forgiving,  tolerant,  caring, reMINDing, without condescending,  reMINDing because he and I ARE THE ONE.

Saying I struggle with this, gives struggle power.

I AM in a relationship, and I appreciate it the way it feels. I appreciate the way it is freeing, because now I have someone to watch over me, and ME. Now I have someone who believes in me and ME,  and that is the greatest difference in the world.