Know Your Power

Know your own POWER.  Last year when starting MY INNER work,  I realized MY negative thoughts manifest instantly.  That means,  whatever I was getting and attracting, came instantly to me, from my moments of negative thought. THAT IS POWER!  Albeit negative.

When I realized this, I couldn't help admit that if my negative thoughts manifested intstantly, my positive thoughts also manifested intstantly.  That IS TRUE POWER.  That IS an ENERGY which can be used negatively or positively by the choices WE make moment by moment.

Over the last couple of weeks, I was growing uneasy.  I stopped doing several things,  one was breathing.  Breathing is an important STEP in awareness. The other was paying attention to what I was telling myself.  I started telling stories and they compounded upon themselves, so I started to get lost. The FOCUS of this lost, was MY TRUE LOVE. I also stopped doing artwork. Artwork is an important element to MY growth and well-being.

There was a slow unraveling taking place. As if I was caught in a fast moving web, like those baby spiders do, when they fly from the nest. My web was unraveling and taking me to a familiar and unhappy place.  The ENERGY around me was trying to lift me back UP,  but I wasn't listening,  until yesterday when MY DIVINE SELF spoke to me through the verses of the Tao. 

This is what the lack of awareness brought me.  There is a practice by idiots in my neighborhood to cut the branches from trees down so far as if to stunt them; they maim and mangle the them.  I feel the pain and anger from the trees.  The men are ignorant and arrogant.  I've noticed new devastation to trees already suffering! Trees have a will like no other to LIVE, but not in pain. I offered to take their suffering from them. I transmutate ENERGY.  I took their pain and suffering from them, and this compounded upon my OWN suffering.  There's a way to transmutate without being effected and it's as simple as saying how and where the ENERGY is going without feeling it. DUH Heidi! 

My lack of awareness, was like a slow moving train, that didn't know it's brakes were out and it was about to go downhill.  It takes you like that.  I AM reconstructing MY web. I AM like a spider, sitting on it's web, looking sleepy, but just waiting for the moment when the fly is entangled and I can pounce.