In the FLOW

What is the FLOW? The FLOW IS ENERGY.  When you are in ENERGY, and you know you are the FLOW,  there's nothing that cannot be accomplished.  The key is staying in the FLOW.  So far this year, I have been new every single day!  How do I know I'm new? Those days you have where you seem different from everything else in the world, or where you feel that everything is different from you, that is when you are new. Being new means I am changing every single day! Even incremental changes create a new feeling. 

Just because I'm new, does not mean I'm completely in the FLOW.  I have been happy every single day except the days my LOVE was unhappy and let it be known to me.  That effected me, so as with last week I spent last night not sleeping well, and not in a great mood today, despite my willing myself into strength and balance.  Possibly because of my lack of sleep I wasn't able to keep good focus.

I AM NEW,  but it was only a so, so day. I AM in the FLOW, but it's unbalanced and at the edges of it. We can say people effect our mood and keep us from being in the FLOW and balanced, but really it's all in our thinking where these thoughts come from.  No one effects my mood unless I let them.  No one has power mentally over another,  but our government has sure done a good job trying.

I AM FREE and I don't own anyone.  What I need to do is LOVE MYSELF so much, no one can effect me. I need to stay balanced and in the center of FLOW to accomplish what needs doing.  That means I must learn to LOVE him, unconditionally and without expectations.  I cannot be chained to the expectations that he will behave the way I want.  This seems difficult but it's only as difficult as I believe it is.

When I was first struggling with this, I had a transcendental dream where I was in PURE ENERGY CONSCIOUSNESS SOUL. Jesus,  Buddha, Lao Tzu, Rumi and others were there.  They said to me, 'Silly rabbit Heidi,  LOVING without unconditionally and without expectations is for US to do to YOU! All you need to do is LOVE and if you get hurt, LOVE again and if you get hurt, LOVE again and whatever you do, don't ever stop loving.'

That was before I worked MY HURT, my sadness and anger, before I forgave myself of everything I had ever done to myself and others, before I let go of shame and guilt, before I became truly vulnerable and exposed MY secrets,  before I found MYSELF to be JUST like DIVINE ENERGY.  Now I know I AM CREATOR.  I create MY OWN REALITY.  I bring those things I need, to ME. I know the only thing that can stop me,  is myself. 

Now I AM at a point where I need to develop the skills to LOVE unconditionally and without expectations, and never stop loving.  And be willing to break my HEART, because in breaking the HEART is where you learn the most about yourself,  if you are listening and observing. Be willing to risk LOVE.  BE FEARLESS and LIMITLESS. BE DIVINE LOVE, the LIGHT, CREATOR,  GODDESS, the MOTHER of the UNIVERSE.  I'm doing it!